Here is the dress style:
Obviously, the halloween is darling, but I want it to be able to be used all fall/winter. I'll layer it over a long-sleeved shirt and leggings. Here are the fabric choices:
Obviously, the halloween is darling, but I want it to be able to be used all fall/winter. I'll layer it over a long-sleeved shirt and leggings. Here are the fabric choices:
Actually, I don't. If I had to characterize myself as a morning or night person, I definitely fall on the morning side of the fence. So does my son. For sure.
So, to clarify, I hate WORK mornings. In order to be at work near the 8 am target, we need to be out the door as close to 7 as possible. No, my commute is not an hour, but the sitter is 10 minutes away in the opposite direction, add in a stop at McDonald's and my 30 minute commute—you get the picture.
It shouldn't be a big deal, I tell myself, because Sam gets up at 6:15 on a Saturday anyway. Murphy's rule applied to children: The child who wakes up at 6 am on Saturday will always want to sleep late on work days.
I remember mornings B.C. (before children). I'd take my time getting ready, stop and watch the news a little bit on my way out the door, grab a leisurely breakfast and read a little before heading out the door. Now, I didn't give myself as much grace in the desired time of arrival, but in general, it was relaxing and a great way to start a day.
Now, mornings are filled with terror, prodding, and frustration. The kids have to be woken to cries of "it's too sunny in here" and "leave me alone" (both from my 2-year-old) and a constant battle with Sam about watching "just one more cartoon" and taking a Wii game to the sitter. I have to look over the banister about every 5 minutes or so while making breakfast, monitoring morning potty stops, and trying to remember all the things we need to take with us for that evening's activities. I look over and yell: "How can you not be dressed by now?" or "We need to leave in 5 minutes! Eat up!" Then, when the clock strikes 7, it's mush, mush, get out to the car, what have we forgotten today?, and is the garage door closed? Heaven forbid that I failed to see the morning forecast, because my drive to the sitter may include a quick U-turn to put the dog back in the house if clouds look menacing.
Does all that exhaust you? It does me too. And it honestly makes me rethink the entire parenting ordeal. Was I this difficult to get out the door? It takes me the entire drive to work just to calm down from the frenetic pace of it all.
I'm doing a Bible study about the thoughts we carry and how they affect our lives. Let me just tell you, the thoughts that are generated between 6:30 and 7:30 each morning are not helpful. God is not being honored. Even our traveling prayer team (i.e. circus) inspires little positive thought.
I'm not sure if I'm alone in all this, but I doubt it. I'm just thankful that it isn't a 5-day-a-week occurrence. For that, I consider myself blessed.
This week we reached an exciting milestone for Sam: preschool graduation. I'll admit that before having children, I mocked these teeny commencement exercises with great vigor. I mean, really? Do we want to convey the same measure of congratulations to a kid who's managed to attend 3 days of morning classes and learned his ABCs as we do someone who's completed 12 years of schooling or has completed the work required to obtain some sort of valuable career? And those tiny little caps and gowns? Come on.
But, as a mother of a preschool graduate (class of 2022—woo!), all of the sudden, I see a reason to celebrate. The end of preschool and beginning of Kindergarten is a real milestone for these little graduates—they are leaving the safe confines of snack time, mommy pickup and morning songs and are headed to the big bad word of daily expectations, monotony, standardized testing. It's a step that we've been waiting anxiously for since Sam was born—the move to Kindergarten. He's so ready, I know that, and yet, I get emotional when I think about the end of preschool.
I've never been particularly nostalgic, at least I don't think of myself that way. And though we've been blessed to attend a terrific preschool the last three years, I've never thought about missing it or the comfort and familiarity it offered. But preschool was a proving ground for Sam—where he made his own friends, followed directions and achieved things that he'd never do for Mommy (coloring!), and navigated the complex world of schedules and projects thrust on the 3-5 year olds in attendance. We learned that Sam has an uncanny knack for memorization, particularly when set to music. He's graduated from the love of Thomas the Tank Engine to the much more sophisticated world of Legos, Wii, and Star Wars. We thought he was so grown up when he started in the Red Room three years ago, but I look at him now and see a totally different Sam. He's a big kid now. No remnants of baby remain. He doesn't need me to dress him or write his name or brush his teeth (though I still help with the shoe-tying and the lunch-making).
As excited as I am to buy school supplies (real ones, that will be stored in a desk with his name on it) and begin the 12-year journey through the public school system, I am mourning the friends and familiarity to which we're saying good-bye. Maybe that's the reason parents take these milestones so much harder than their children—because we are not only seeing the moment in time, but the big picture of the changes that are coming, the things that will never be again. We are remembering how much life changes from one phase to the next, instead of eagerly awaiting the start of the next big thing (grade school, high school, driving, graduation, college, marriage, parenthood…). I know that Sam will have so many fun times and new friends and great things to experience in the days ahead, but I also grieve just a little bit for the things we're leaving behind, knowing that, though with good intentions we promise to keep in touch, get together, that our paths are separating for now.
In saying all this, I also need to apologize to my own parents for never really understanding the emotion that accompanied these big events in my life. I couldn't wait for the end of high school, college, etc—if anything, I've short-changed times in my life by putting too much value on the next phase down the road. I remember at my last high school choir concert, the alumni were asked to come on stage to sing the alma mater. My mom, an alum, came up on stage for the first and only time during my high school years. She was emotional, and made even more so by the fact that I wanted her to stand on the other side of me so I could be by my friends and her. I didn't get it. I didn't understand why the event was important to her, because I saw it as my day, my last song. As is typical with kids, my perspective was all about me, and I didn't really appreciate her gesture or her feelings.
I think I'm starting to get it now…